I want to believe things are on the upswing.
My friend Jesse pointed out there are millions of people who would kill to be in my shoes right now. And when I stepped back and thought about everything that IS happening, it's wonderful. It's just the WAITING and the NOT KNOWING. And not making any money off the waiting and not knowing.
When the boys called me on Friday to tell me about the deal, I think my mind was reeling from what the studio wanted to change that I didn't get excited about the fact the project was still alive. And I have NOT been able to shut my brain off since that conversation.
In a presentation like this, you do "boards" with potential cast members. We had potentially Kathy Bates, Laura Dern and Allison Janney. (This is down from where I started with a cast of all senior citizens.) We have to go even younger now with two of the roles and make one of them not white.
This is probably the only time in my life I've ever used algebra. If Kathy Bates goes into this role and so and so is black and 40 years old... how can a 20something white girl be the butcher? OR if Queen Latifah goes into the "ditzy" role (minus the ditz), how much do you add so that the 20something white girl can play girly?
The whole thing is about to give me a seizure. These small changes have really changed the entire story.
I'm talking my mind NEVER shuts off. I went to see WAR, INC. last night with Shannon and Catie, and for the first half of the movie I was thinking Lily Taylor (who was in a coming attraction) would be fantastic as "Sissy," but she's not black and NOW we really want Katee Sackhoff for "Delores" (but then we have to change the name, because Sackhoff does not look like a "Delores")... Seriously, I can't tell you what WAR, INC was about. I think I stopped thinking about the script when Hilary Duff dropped the scorpion down her pants.
(By the way... The Landmark on Pico is now my new favorite movie theater.)
Now couple the fact I can't shut my head off with the "AM I DOING THE RIDE OR NOT" squawking in my head every five seconds.
But it is now official: I will not be doing the ride from San Francisco. HOWEVER, I will be going up late Friday to Ventura, stay over night and ride in on the last day. So at least I get to experience a little of it.
I did have a great night at Here Lounge, which was a party for SEX AND THE CITY. I normally hate those things, but I had really great people around me. I even think I talked Brian Nolan into doing the Honolulu Marathon with me. (Oh, that's official too... I'm doing the Honolulu Marathon. Which sound be a piece of cake compared to bike training!)
And we're still waiting (I'm always waiting it seems) on the staff job.
And wouldn't you know Monday is holiday!? So I won't get any answers for DAYS.
But I guess I just have to keep plugging. And hope something breaks soon.